Joy’s Writing from the Heart

 

 

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Perfect

She walked down the cat walk so confident and sure of herself or that is what the crowd saw she was tall and she wore clothes beautifully but no ne knew that every day she would get on the scale to weigh herself and that if she gained a half pound the girl would make herself sick after eating and throw up until there was no food left in her stomach… Oh she felt wonderful and so in control she did not even feel anything like a doll she was perfect no longer did she have to feel the pain that gnawed at her  stomach the empty feeling was like heroine it felt wonderful taking her out of her body she could do anything and when she was called to go out and walk what she lovingly called  the plank she was ready she was perfect and though she felt dead inside no longer living amongst the mortals o the rush it was enough and the crowd gave her the food she desperately needed the love she never had and she was free no longer do she have to feel that she would never be enough she was perfect as long as her body did not control her and she controlled her body of course no one knew that late at night she would gorge herself until she was sick and throw up and the cycle would start all over again but no one knew as she walked down the cat walk….. she was perfect.

Anorexia nervosa is an eating disorder characterized by immoderate food restriction, inappropriate eating habits or rituals, obsession with having a thin figure, and an irrational fear of weight gain, as well as a distorted body self-perception. It typically involves excessive weight loss and is diagnosed approximately nine times more often in females than in males.

 

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